anyone who knows me has heard the story of how my boyfriend and I met and how we decided to begin the relationship that we've been in the last 4 years...but let me fill you in...
first of all, we both work in the same place, and I am a supervisor and he is not. One of my responsibilities is to communicate to the team what is going on throughout the day...WELL I hate talking in front of people. So I'm talking in front of this crowd of 20ish people, and I can hear this guy talking in the back of the crowd...just loud enough to piss me off. I let him chat for a few minutes, and then I heard him laugh over my voice...at this point I did what any respectful supervisor would do, I stopped in mid sentence, got his attention and said, "sir, if you have something that you would like to share with the whole group, then why don't you just come right up front and share it with everyone."
He HATED me!!! So then I did what any girl would do...I got a crush on him...I had a friend find out who he was, how old he was, if he had a girlfriend, blah, blah, blah. Come to find out he did have a girlfriend, come to find out I was extremely shy talking to him. This may be because he had these really deep brown eyes and these long eyelashes that guys always seem to have, which pisses me off because they never want them (I want them!), he's extremely tall, smart, and has a voice that can lullaby my to sleep.
somehow I got him to come and hang out with me on my 21st birthday. And it was exciting, for one I found out that he was 4 years older than me (hello!! older guy!!) and secondly, I was really into him. So he meets us in my areas downtown area, and we have so much fun, joking, laughing, drinking, and I'm thinking the night is going so much better than I imagined it going...but then my best friend starts getting really loud, she's flashing MY guy for shots (well this is how I take it, really she's flashing the bar for drinks). So we get into my friend's car to hit another bar, my guy in to backseat, and my friend has told me that she only had a few drinks and she's okay to drive...tell me how we end up slamming into a parked car (yes, I realize this is extremely stupid, punishable, and not to be laughed at...I completely agree). We check the car we hit, zero damage, but my friend's car is falling apart...My future boyfriend, who was fine with sitting in the backseat, pulls my friend to the back and tells her he's taking over the driving...after he picks up her headlight from ground...
So, you're probably asking how this story could get worse...well we drop my friend's car off, obviously we can't drive it. So we get into another friend's car and my best friend, my future boyfriend, and I are huddled in the backseat of this grand am...my friend is laying in this guys lap and she starts playing with his family jewels (and no, I'm not really friends with this girl any longer...). We are all dropped off at home or our own cars...the night is over, finally.
SURPRISE! This guy still wants to get to know me...Yes, its on my radar that he still has a girlfriend, but I also know that they aren't really getting along, and he's looking for a few good people to hang out with. At this point, I'm like if I can't have him as my boyfriend, I want him to be my friend...and I got my wish. We did everything together, took walks, went out, talked, wow we talked so much, I don't think anyone knows me as well to this day...Unfortunately, I fell in love and there was no way reversing it...luckily he fell in love too...
I remember our first kiss...it was the weekend of Easter 4 years ago...we were in a friend's room...they were having a party, and we just wanted to sit and talk, drink a few beers on our own. He still had a girlfriend, but I could tell that things had changed between us, and I was sososososososo scared. He asked me if I ever thought about kissing him...ummm, yes...do you want to kiss me...yes...and then he was leaning in, and I was backing away, telling him that I didn't think that it was a good idea, but then his lips were on mine...and the world melted away, it was just the two of us...I can remember my heart beating, I can remember being hot and wondering where this kiss would lead, I remember wanting to cry because it was so perfect, that I didn't have to question if we had a connection, because it was obvious we did...
What to do now? We fought our relationship. His girlfriend wanted things to work, he wanted to split...they had been together for 5 years, he didn't know how to really break things off. I was ticked! How are you going to kiss me the way you did, and still have claim to another relationship?! And this was in my mind, until I saw him, until I kissed him...and then...geez! we would just be attached, sitting in a baseball field on a blanket for hours, talking and kissing...or sitting in my car outside his house, or trying to hide the fact that we were holding hands under the table when we were out with friends...I know it wasn't right, but I was in love with him...
The breakup did happen. He cut it off, and we didn't get together right away...he said he needed some time in between...started talking about possibly dating other girls, and I started telling him that I thought I was just the stand in for their broken relationship...I was heartbroken...Then one night I was sitting in my car, we were listening to The Used, he was singing to me...and then he looked at me, almost sad and told me that he thought he had fallen in love with me...I was shoked, it took my breath away....it still takes my breath away...
the next weekend we were out and he whispered in my ear, "do you love me" and I said yes, he said "do you love me enough to be my girlfriend...even after what I have put you through...while I promise you that I'll never do any of it again" and I said yes...and we have been together ever since...I'm still absolutely in love, he still takes my breath away...
nixi-jayne
9 years ago
