school....

so, i feel like i haven't been on here in forever....but school started and my life is a little hectic right now....I have 3 more classes today and then hopefully I will have time to fill the blogger world in on my crazy life....lets just say, I am definitely happy this is the last semester in my college life!!!!

girls' night out!!!!

Finally! A girls' night out!!!! These two ladies to my right and left have become two of my best girlfriends...we all have different, insanely different personalities, but we somehow make it work...

what I found last night was that you need your girls. I have always been a girl who enjoyed hanging out with the guys. I didn't think girls were worth the time, they were catty, shared secrets even when they were sworn not too, and they always seemed to have a hidden agenda with the friendship they shared with you. Guys were so much easier. I could talk to them, flirt, get advice, and feel like if I told them something they weren't going to repeat it...I mean not only did they probably give me advice even though they didn't understand half of what I said, but they probably would also not remember it tomorrow or see it as more important than the score of the Mizzou game that was on the night before. Although there was obvious issues with confiding in guys to understand my problems, I had a few guy friends that I could trust, knew would listen, and was there for me more than any girl I had ever tried to be friends with...they didn't try to out shine me, they didn't steal my clothes (or my boyfriends for that matter), and my secrets were sacred.

However, these two girls are different as I think I've said before. My girl on the left, well, she's a pageant queen. She loves getting all dressed up in evening gowns, make-up, and high heels. She's bubbly, extremely bubbly, and the life of the party. Unfortunately, I feel like she's got a sad side as well, which makes me wish I could find a way to solve all her problems...they are so much like mine were when I still lived with my parents. My lady on the right is quiet and soft spoken even though she looks like she may be a party girl. She loves her ethnicity, her husband, and tattoos, she's actually getting the rest of her pin-up girl done today. She's also the best listener that I have ever met, which has made me confide more in her than I ever did with some people I considered the best of friends. The differences between all of us are evident, and would usually make us and unlikely trio, but I think the differences between us make us stronger, because we all have something to add to our friendship...

We'd never done a girls' night out. We're all in serious relationships, I think the shortest out of the three is 3 years. All of us plan to get married to the guy we're with, or are already married. So we took the chance to spend some time together before our educations take us 2 hours away from each other or just cause us to have our heads stuck in a book. We went to a close "club." I say this lightly because the place seemed more of a watering hole with $1 bottles and these $10 drinks they put in a boot that are a mixture of vodka and some kind of fruit punch. Stick 3 straws in the boot, and this became our choice of drink. We danced, we laughed, we had guys buy us drinks and then refused their advances. After 5 hours of pouring energy into our girlie outing, we were still hyped up, singing at the top of our lungs in my car, and talking about how much we're going to miss each other when we are separated for the school semester.

From hanging with these two ladies, I've learned a lot about myself and much more about a good friendship with some terrific girls! Yay to girls' night out and Yay to having some of the best friends a girl could ask for!

what am I scared of....

so at the end of this fall semester, I will be considered at college graduate. i'll have a degree in sociology-human resources, but now that i'm almost finished i don't know if this is what i want to be doing. i always imagined working with people, first being a doctor, then a ceo, and now human resources, but the more i look at my life and what i want to be doing...i think i should have chosen a different route. see, i'm really interested in social work with children who are in foster care or orphanages. yes, this lacks money, is an extemely sad career, and could possibly be more than just a little stressful, but just thinking about it i can feel the satisfaction i would get out of such a position.

and i'm scared. i'm scared that by taking on this career, i may not be able to help any of these children, or i may find myself getting attached which will only make the career harder on me. i think it would be worth it though...seeing one child find a family that will love them and take care of them. every child should have that. i just want the joy of being able to help someone have a better life, and i don't see this happening with the degree i have now...

but not only do i have my future career choice to be scared of, i also have concern over paying tuition to continue school...i'd have to go back to get a master's in social work, which would be not big deal if i didn't already owe $30,000 in student loans. i would have to be able to afford another 2-3 years in school, and i don't know how soon i would be able to do it...

gift giving time!

So, I'm making my boyfriend one of those cute/dirty/sweet coupon books for our anniversary in September...I'm looking for ideas that a guy might like! I know I'm going to do the usual like, massage, dinner on me, and sexy time specials (lol), but I really want to know if there is something that guys want that I'm forgetting =( If you have suggestions please let me know!!!!

sleepy time....

Tonight is one of those sad nights where I just don't want to go to bed...My boyfriend and I are on different work schedules, so while I worked all day, he slept and now he will be awake throughout the night while I'm snoozing...

nights like these I find myself cuddling his pillow, hoping to breathe in the last smells of him so lull myself to sleep. I dream of us being together, because it feels like he's miles away, instead of in the next room watching cable tv or playing on his computer (or my laptop, which he does so much of the time). I curl my body around our comforter so it feels like I'm grasping onto something more than cotton...

so as I prepare myself for bed, I will finish this post...I want to finish by hoping that everyone reading has a chance of finding the one other person who makes them wish for more time together...who you miss even when they are in the next room. I think everyone should get to feel the way I feel right now...